Day 100-100 Day Challenge

Know Better, Do Better

I struggle with over-explaining when I talk. I try to fit *all* of the context into whatever it is I’m talking about. I can meander, along with this. So I end up losing those I’m talking to. I don’t mean to do this, but I do.

I go strong cues I was doing this today during a couple of different conversations even.

I think I know why I, mostly, unconsciously do it. I want folks to understand, or to put it a slightly different way I don’t want to be misunderstood. When I feel misunderstood, I feel really alone. But after today’s communication faux pas, I was left feeling that way anyway. I over-explained and folks had to ask me to sum up what I was saying. Or they had to leave the call on time when I trailed on. I took up more space than was mine to take up. Not on purpose, but because of whatever … weird shit goes on in my brain.

With my paid work, and in my general relationships, this is definitely something I want to work on. So I guess what I’ve come up with is to really pause and collect my thoughts before speaking. I do think sometimes I jump in before I’ve fully collected my thoughts because silence can be uncomfortable… And then I go rambling. Pausing will also make sure that I’m fully listening, and not just waiting my turn to speak. Or even accidentally cutting folks off because I preemptively thought they were finished speaking. Per this article, I’m also weakening my words and diluting my message.

Anyhoo, there’s my most recent personal growth realization and self-assigned work. Who else struggles with sort of thing, or what does this remind you of?

Art Heals

I started counseling at the end of May, so I’ve been working on my personal health again. Along with counseling, I’ve been rebooting my other healthy life habits. Including making art. So here’s a bunch of mixed media journal entries and a few other pieces I worked on this month.

100 Days: I made it!

If you noticed today’s blog title: I did it! For 100 days I wore the same dress for at least a portion of the day. I didn’t make it 100 days with blogging and photographs, but this helped to encourage me to come back to those things more regularly than I might have. I still haven’t purged the clothes I haven’t been wearing so much, but there’s been a laundry basket I need to go through. I’ve liked not having so much laundry and not having to think about what to wear. I like the challenge of mending clothes that get holes or stains in them, instead of shuffling off to someone else. I’m still letting the top of my hair grow for the mean time, though I’ll probably end up dying it again at some point in the near future.

Closing Out

I’m feeling tired today. Work has felt busy, and I have a big training this week too. Instead of living in the moment, I’ve got 1,000 scenarios in my head.

I’m wishing everyone peace in the moment, groundedness, and revolutionary love.