My goal is to keep my morning Sadhana going. Like, forever. Well, until I die anyway.
Trouble is, I have to be to work earlier than the average bear.
Soon I’ll be leaving for work at 6:00. This means I’ll have to get up no later than 4:30, and probably more like 4:00 a.m., to do my morning practice and have time to get dressed, brush my teeth, make and eat breakfast, etc…
4:00 a.m…
Oy.
Today was my first foray into early morning Sadhana. Up at 5:30. Twenty minutes on the yoga mat. Twenty minutes on the meditation cushion. A few minutes journaling until I ran out of things to say.
Tomorrow I’ll be up at 5:00, because I found I was rushing around a bit too much after my practice. I left my egg sandwich behind…
I want to gain control over my life. I want to use my energy for things that serve me, instead of falling into habits that don’t. One way of doing this is continuing my morning practice.
The hard work I put into my yoga class over summer starts to pay off now. The discipline, the self-control. Doing this practice first thing in the morning will help me to go with the flow throughout the rest of my day.
Tomorrow will be the 66th day of my morning practice, but many of those days I was able to get up later. It’s not so hard to roll out of bed at 8:00.
I was happy before starting my yoga teacher training. But it did change me. It gave me the push I needed and the discipline to guide me on a more focused path.
I’ve been up since 5:30 today. No nap. I even skipped lunch and decided to eat when I got home instead. I’m not as tired as I would have thought, though I feel I’ll get a good night’s sleep tonight. I’m tired, but I feel good.
I can do this. I can do this forever.
And if I trip and stumble, I’ve gained the grace and self-discipline to forgive myself and get back on the horse.
But for now, I am doing this. Day after day. I’ll persist.