Two more days until back to school. I’m procrastinating so hard. So much for my word of the year: focus… Baby steps I guess.
I’m in a much better head space to go back to work. The cynic has quieted down. The optimist is poking her head back out to check out the situation.
My big picture for not letting the cynic take over is … thinking small.
“Be the change you wish to see in the world.”
~ Ghandi (paraphrased)
“Change yourself and you’ve done your part to change the world.”
~ Paramahansa Yogananda
“I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create ripples.”
~ Mother Theresa
“Just as ripples spread out when a single pebble is dropped into water, the actions of individuals can have far reaching effects.”
~ Dalai Lama
I need to focus on the things that fill me up and give me joy. I need to let go of negative energy that doesn’t serve me. I need to focus on what I can control and let go of the rest.
That word again. Focus.
I need to keep focusing on those things that fill up my cookie jar, as my past therapist would say. Too often I deplete my cookie jar. I give “cookies” to my students, administrators, sometimes my friends and family without regard if I’m doing the things I need to keep my cookie jar filled.
I typically don’t realize I’ve given so much of myself away until I’m already depleted and suffering the symptoms: Snapping at people. Avoiding work. Eating crappy. Not exercising. Not
Part of what will help me stay focused is doing my work in a timely fashion. Procrastinating just ends up making me frantic while I’m at work.
No está bien.
It’s only day 5 of 2019, but ‘focus’ might be the very word I need. Certainly there’s plenty of work to be done in that area.
